Holy crap I get to go to Puerto Vallarta tomorrow.
First time in a plane since I was 6.
Im really excited and nervous.
I love my microdermals.
I haven’t felt this stressed since I was still home and I hate it. I feel so stupid to have my stomach churning in knots. It’s not stress from a trip but a questioning of my choices and fear of my future. I literally struggle everyday to get up and do something with myself. I recently just want to stay in bed and sleep but I can’t. This stupid apathy is really bringing me down and destroying my health. I’m feeling those stupid weak spells again. I literally have been shaking the past few mornings of all the anxiety built up in me. I hate how I’m feeling lately and I hope this trip makes it go away for awhile… I’m just literally making my life hard and burning myself out.
I wanna sleep all day. Yet at night I can’t even get to bed.
RIP to all those who didn’t make it to 2014. And to those that did; I’m so, so proud of you.
I didn’t even try to scroll past this
anxiety go away.
I dont want you.
Next time Leo.